Four days

Today is just a few days before the surgery scheduled this Friday 27th May. Valentina has a runny nose, I am not feeling very well but I am fighting with everything that I have to not get sick, I will certainly get awfully sick as soon as all of this is over, but at the moment I am not willing to let my body give in and get sick, not even an option. Amelia is doing great, interacting, baby talking, developing her little self every single day, is just amazing to watch. At the same time is very difficult to imagine this little sweet girl going through what she's about to. She just doesn't have any idea of what's to come and that kills me, it makes me feel so guilty that I feel sick in my stomach. We mothers know a lot about guilt doesn't? I just can't help it. Four more days to go, we are holding on like never before. Keep strong my baby girl.